||[Dec. 16th, 2009|11:24 am]
Ashley (aka maddy ashy aka ashoftomorrow)
what the fucking fuck. what the hell. i just found out that a friend of mine from high school is being fucking held in pakistan and accused of being a terrorist. this is so fucking ridiculous i'm sure i'm not making any sense at all right now but i'm so upset i can hardly think. he was honestly one of the funniest, nicest people in my high school and always said things to make me smile and he's fucking being accused of being a terrorist. i can't even begin to deal with this right now. like, i realize that he had been getting more and more intense about being muslim and he had been starting to say things on facebook that were more extreme than i would have expected from him but this is just one of the last people i would have ever expected to be militant at all.
fuck. this is completely fucking with my perception of reality and how things fucking work.
and sorry about all the cursing. i honestly just don't have the vocabulary to express the extent of my sadness and anger and disbelief right now and repeated use of the word fuck is the best i can muster.